☣Enigma of pain☣
Guess who is depressed?
My mom has a bitter divorce with my dad 16 years ago, married my step dad who I love more than anyone. My parents (biological) fought all the time over us and were just bad people. Two years ago my step dad divorced my mom because after a mishap on a fork lift fucked up her back and then got addicted to her pain pills. Two weeks later she moved in this red neck fucktard and ruined everything mom and him fought physically and I called the cops on them twice. He was a drunk and my mom a psychotic bitch. She almost killed herself everyday. My brothers and I eventually got him to move out. Then a week before thanksgiving my mom kicked me out. I eventually got to come back. I have been depressed for about three and a half years and within the past few months have become slightly suicidal. Last February a couple of my close friends attempted suicide and I personally was responsible for one going to a ward. I feel like a horrible monster, every day I am a fuck up. Every day I want to die. This is what my mind looks like inside ( I clean up a bit for this though) enjoy.
